Regretting what I ate

UGH!! I am still regretting the Cheetos from the other day, when I went shopping with mom and didn't have lunch first. I will have to remember how I feel after eating a food that I KNOW makes me feel lousy.

I was able to keep the Hormel Turkey Pepperoni in the fridge on Sunday.

I may have eaten a few slices on Saturday. I forget.

I did indeed work out saturday Jillian Michaels style, (circuit training) without the potty mouth, tho.

I found I REALLY miss moving about during aerobics. I really miss it, but injuries keep me in place. But, I still felt good doing what I could, and imagined moving about as I remained in place. Aerobics, weights then abs, several circuits.

I take Sundays off from exercise.

I layed around in bed until nearly 10 am (didn't have church because of stake conference, and had bad weather over the weekend) and ate....something.....I forget...um....a piece of home made Cuban Water Bread and a grapefruit. Now, whoever determined that the proper amount to eat is only 1/2 a grapefruit must not like grapefruit. I eat the whole thing, no guilt.

Ate a square of Hershey Bliss caramel chocolate sometime (all things in moderation), a few pieces of black licorice and palmful of salted Pumpkin seeds.

Chef salad with 3 Colossal Garlic Stuffed Green Olives.... mmmmmm and another piece of my home made bread (I like my carbs)

Dinner was barbequed boneless chicken breast, corn and steamed kale with carrot chips and onions...

Note to self

• Kudos for keeping the Turkey Pepperoni in the fridge today
• Don't buy Cheetos anymore unless you plan to burn the bag
• Kudos for taking Sundays off
• Kudos for finding a workout that...well...works for you, and without the potty mouth

Day 6- I don't hurt today

I was mindful of my neck muscles during Yoga and during free weights. I don't feel horrible today.

Breakfast was.....something while waiting for the water to boil for my gOatmeal with maple and pecans..oh yes, little bit of leftover Cucumber Salsa

2 tiny flaky biscuits (that I really didn't want, but am pms-ing so I ate them anyway)and a Fiber One Oats and Chocolate bar

I feel lousy from eating so much....ugh......

I think today I will combine weights and cardio Jillian Michaels style, but without the potty mouth.

Note to self

• Kudos for being mindful of your neck muscles. It really made a difference
• Kudos for noticing how you feel after eating too much. UGH!

Note to

results of day 5

Well, thus far, the unprofessional potty-mouth Jillian Michaels 30-Day Shred DVD is going to sell to someone on eBay. Is up to $7-something.

The Body's natural Famine Panic hit early, on day 5. It is usually day 10. I ate everything...! UGH!! chocolate, popcorn, another 1/2 muffin, chocolate rocks, 1/2 almond joy and a sugar free coconut piece. ACK! Feeling like I ate waaaay to much (moaning...)

Yoga with Rodney Yee and weights, squats, calves, arms, pecs

We played Harry Potter Clue while it snowed and iced.

Dinner was baked potatoes and salad.

A palm full of peanut M&M's because they were there. I think I am entering PMS week. Yes, coming into the beginning of the month. I am definately entering PMS week. How am I going to handle eating right and PMS week?

Palm full of Pumpkin seeds because they were there during PMS week.

Note to self

• Remember how you feel when you give in to the famine panic.
• pretty dog gone lousy. Ugh......
• How are you going to handle PMS week?
• what can you do instead of over eat? Ask the Lord for help?
• You turn to Him for everything else.

day 5 Toad Suck IS a real place

Yes, we really are real out here in Toad Suck, Arkansas, and I have the proof. This is one of the views as we walk down our road, dodging Redneck Roy and his brother, Redneck Ruff Billy Bob Ray-Jack.

Woke up to ice and snow this morning. On mornings like this, I like to cook so...I thought Belgian Waffles and ham slices would be great for the fambly. So, breakfast for me was, um....

6 slices of turkey pepperoni as I ..um...waited for the waffles to cook.

1/2 Belgian waffle with Mrs Butterworth Light syrup, small slice Jennie-O Turkey ham, 1/2 chocolate chocolate chunk muffin (Patrick has mastered these) and a grapefruit. Too much food. ugh.

I intend to spend 40 minutes of my day doing Yoga with Rodney Yee and Colleen Saidman, and some time doing squats ( truly, my favorite exercise-really!) with the burgundy tube, free weights for pecs, arms and abs.

Note to self

• Toad Suck is real
• Redneck Roy is real
• So is his brother
• Leave the Pepperoni in the fridge
• Kudos for stopping at 6 slices of your trigger food
• Kudos for recognizing when you've had too much food
• maybe next time you will stop sooner.

Day 4- Outsmarting Redneck Roy and FInding a Dead Ghost

Today Patrick and I outsmarted Redneck Roy and his speeding truck by walking on the road BEFORE 3 pm. Not too far down the road I discovered a dead ghost in the woods. Yes? I called the police, but doubly dead didn't impress them.


Oh, I ACHE!!! The walking and yoga and weight training is KILLING ME! I feel like I am about to be double dead myself. I am whinning, whimpering, but moving forward.

Today my mother came over wanting to go to town for some aerobic shopping!! Yippie!! We went to get my vehicle registration done, then ended up shopping a while at Family dollar. Then on to one of our favorite second hand stores, New Beginnings, and I found a TUXEDO for my younger son for $10!!!!!!! Perfect fit. He is so pleased.



I did not take note of what breakfast was other than a small apple and....something.

Lunch.....well, mom and I went out before the lunch hour and I got hungry while in the Family dollar store. Since we still had a couple stops to make before getting home, I bought..um...a bag of trigger food Cheetos cheese puffs (I definatly need MORE dairy)...and...um..a can of mixed nuts and ate some of each on the way to to the second hand store (seriously, what can you buy that is sane in the dollar store?). BUT!! I remained sane, stopped eating before I got home an hour and a half later, and when I got home, I did NOT eat another lunch. I just felt like I'd had enough to eat, which is NOT NORMAL for me. If I've missed lunch and ate something to tide me over, I normally would eat again when I got home. But not today. Yippie!!

Free weights and bands today for back ,delts. Forgot to do abs, as dinner was ready by then. Darnit garnet.

For dinner Buddy wanted to make Meat Loaf, Mashed Potatoes, gravy, and broccoli. He MUST have Cranberry Sauce.

Bought more fresh broccoli for Broccomoli. Maybe for day 5. We'll see.

Note to self

• Remember to take your camera on walks. You never know what you'll find
• Kudos for outsmarting Redneck Roy
• Kudos for finding a great deal during your aerobic shopping trip
• Kudos for not eating junk all afternoon
• Kudos for not eating another lunch just because you could have
  You like Broccomoli
• and Kudos for snacking on a smart choice (carrot chips) while writing on your blog

day 3 and recipe for Broccomolli

Breakfast was a bowl of Autumn Wheat Kashi cereal with fresh blueberries topped with Almond milk. Cup of Licorice herbal tea.

and um....1 chocolate Lindt Lundor Truffle. I had a coupon for $1 off and I was NOT going to waste it... gotta use those GOOD coupons, yes?

1 gOatmeal raisin cookie sometime during the day

Just before noon, a friend called needing me to be her kitchen cleaning buddy (she can't clean unless she is talking to me. Nice to be useful in this world) and I started making my lunch. While I put it together, I ate only 2 slices of turkey pepperoni without triggering the feeding frenzy. Yay!!

I made a tuna salad sandwich with lettuce on 7 grain whole wheat toast, sliced cucumbers, carrot chips, sugar snap peas, water and took my lunch to my room while my friend and I talked. She cleaned and I ate. Sounds like a pretty good arrangement to me.

Then I ate palmful of pumpkin seeds because she asked me to be a writer for her new LDS Homeschooling blog. That is called stress eating. There is a 12 step LDS program for this, called the Addiction Recovery Program. You can get the manual from

http://www.ldscatalog.com/

Type "Addiction Recovery" in the search box and, wah-lah, you will see the manual. They are $5 with free shipping. You can attend ARP meetings if you have them in your area. In Little Rock Area there are 3 available locations.

BTW, yes, I am going to be a writer for her homeschool blog.

2 pieces of Panda black licorice chunks sometime

little bit of Broccomoli with tortilla chips

1/2 big orange

Broccomoli

stems from broccoli that you would buy in a rubberbanded bunch (mine came with 4 )
1 Tbl Kraft mayo

1/2 small onion, chopped

1/4 jalapeno pepper, chopped
1 tsp lemon or lime juice

1 garlic clove, chopped

1/2 roma tomato, peeled, seeded and chopped

1 Tbl chopped fresh cilantro

salt and pepper to taste

Peel the skin from the broccoli stems. Boil in salted and peppered water until good and tender, when you've cooked all the nutritional value out of them. Drain and cool.

Puree the cooked stems, (I used a hand mixer) Add the remaining ingredients and serve with tortilla chips. Made about 1/2 cup Broccomoli.

Free weights : squats with handled tube, pectoral presses with purple band, biceps and triceps, abs

And the real treat was.....

Yoga for beginners with Rodney Yee

I have to say, I absolutely loved this DVD. I loved the detailed instruction, demonstration of common mistakes people make, then showed proper form, the background music and the professional way Rodney worked with his partner, Colleen Saidman. I have a preference for Rodney Yee anyway, as I have owned several of his Yoga DVD's over the years. I love his AM Yoga DVD that wakes up the body, stretches you and and gets you ready for the day.

Note to self

• remember to keep your neck relaxed during free weights. You don't want a repeat of the explosion of pain at the back of your head like last night.
• Remember how much you enjoy Yoga with Rodney Yee. It is the best 40 minutes of the day.
• Buy broccoli with stems
• Broccomoli is good

Day 3- who needs expensive equipment?

Patrick and I walked again in the afternoon yesterday, day 2. It's not a good idea to walk on the road after 3 pm because there is a lot of incoming traffic. The walk was sunny, refreshing and a nice time to spend with Patrick. But 1/3 way through the walk, my left heel started talking to me. Darnit Garnit. Can't walk 2 days in a row. I know that.

Walked 1/2 mile
free weights and bands, abs

You don't have to buy a lot of expensive equipment to do resistance training at home. A box of 1/2 inch wide rubber bands from a print shop will do. Office Depot in Conway didn't carry them a few years ago when I checked. Check smaller shops.
Just loop 2-4 of them together like a long band and you've got exercise equipment. You can do Lat pull downs, pectoral work, arms, leg work, squats, rows....

Dinner was Maple Sausage and Rice stir fry and more salad. We like to use a Wild and Brown Rice blend that I find in the health food section at Kroger. Nicer flavor.
Sausage and Rice Stir Fry

1 cup Lundberg Wild Blend Rice

1 cup Brown rice

2 cups organic chicken broth (NOT a clear chicken broth like Swanson or progresso. I find organic broths in the health food section at Kroger)

2 cups water

At least 2 hours before dinner, place rice and above mentioned liquids in a pot and cover. Bring to a boil, then reduce heat to low. Let simmer 50 minutes or until done. Remove from heat and let cool.

1 pkg Maple bulk sausage

1 small package frozen 3 pepper and onion mix

1/2 package frozen small peas, Cooked according to package directions

Brown Maple Sausage then add pepper and onion mix. Cook unil vegetables are tender. Add rice and peas. Serve it up hot for breakfast or dinner.

My family loves this. I am not saying Sausage is the healthiest thing in the world to eat, but like I said before, all things in moderation. Brown rice and wild rice have a higher nutritional value than White rice. I also prefer to use a smaller

plate. Mine is bigger than a saucer, but smaller than a normal plate. Is pretty clear glass with an embossed rose pattern. (Yes, the plate on the left is PINK!)

I LOVE salad. I really do. And when you are trying to eat right, it's important to buy the smart choice foods you love. So I use the fancy lettuce in the bags along with Romaine or Red Leaf (skip the iceberg), grape tomatoes, Yellow tomatoes.... I love sugar snap peas and keep them around. I love carrot chips and nibble on those. No feelings of deprivation when you eat smart choices that you love, such as Garlic Stuffed Olives!!! YES!!! Mezzetta Colossal Garlic stuffed Olives are one of the basic food groups as far as I am concerned. (yes I know they are not low fat, but they are not 6 sugary fatty cookies or a fist full of chocolate. Sometimes I put 3 in my salad) Is this why I am still single?

Note to self

• Kudos for working out even in afternoon
• Walk before 3 pm so you're not jumping into the ditch to avoid getting creamed by Red Neck Roy doing 55 in his dirty white pick up around a blind curve in a 35 mph zone.
• Revise exercise schedule. Plan to do something else cardio between walking days. You know you can't do that no matter how much you love walking.
• Remember to eat the smart choices you love even tho they cost more.

Day 2 midday-trigger foods

Trigger foods. They are out there. We get hold of one and we can’t stop eating. Ice Cream, Candy, Sugar, Processed food, Milk products, pepperoni....

Today, I was going to have cucumber salsa for lunch, but, it turned out to just be an appetizer for tuna salad and green salad. Great, fine. BUT! I had a teenage son who was making himself a pizza and had set the Turkey Pepperoni on the counter. I was waiting for my toast to be ready….oh no…..did I run to the cucumber salsa? NO! I took a couple of slices of that turkey pepperoni and…there I was, caught in the feeding frenzy side effects of the trigger food. After those two slices of turkey pepperoni, I moved on to finding myself slicing off 2 slivers of Colby jack cheese (ACK!! Was I NUTS?! MORE dairy?)

Luckily I got a grip after that. I took notice, stopped, remembered yesterday’s fist full of pepperoni. Yes, feeding frenzy from trigger food.

• 
  Note to self:
  · Remember your trigger foods.
  · Notice what sets you off
  · If you eat one, try to regain consciousness and redirect.

I am not striving for the “Deprivation” diet. No. I am a believer in “all things in moderation.” A deprivation diet is strictly that, and it will fail every time. When you feel too “deprived” of the things you love, you will eventually gobble it and everything else down that you can find. The Doctrine and Covenants speak of what is proper and what is not, and depravation of any food group was not on the list. But moderation is spoken of.

Hormel Turkey PepperoniNutritional Information:

Serving Size: 17 slices

Calories: 80

Fat: 4g

Carbs: 0g

Sodium: 550mg

Fiber: 0g

Protein: 9g

http://www.hungry-girl.com/index.php

Day 2- who invented 5 am?

Whoever invented 5 am should have to spend an eternity of 5 ams with perimenopausal women who don't sleep well at night!! Ugh! It was hard to get up this morning. I am STILL tired.

I have been thinking about Cornbread Waffles for a few days so I made them this morning.

Cornbread Waffles

2 cups of pancake mix

1/2 cup corn meal

1 Tbl sugar

1 1/2 cups milk (I use a substitute)

1/4 cup extra light olive oil

1 cup cooked corn

2 eggs

Chile (opt)

cheese (opt)

Pre-heat waffle baker (I use a Belgian waffle baker)

Place dry ingredients in a large mixing bowl. Separate eggs, whipping the egg whites till stiff peaks form, saving for later. Mix the wet ingredients together, excluding the chilli and cheese as these are optinal toppings, and add to dry mix. Mix well, then fold in the egg whites.

Bake according to usual waffle baker instructions. This recipe makes 4 Belgian Waffles. Top with Chili and cheese if desired. I eat them plain, and like a fingerfood.

Breakfast was 3/4 of a Belgian Waffle, 1 gOatmeal Raisin cookie and 1 small pink grapefruit.

Decided I want Cucumber Salsa for lunch, so I will make it this morning. That way it will be ready for Ms Instant Gratification when lunch time rolls around.

Note to self:

• Good for you for not eating anything while waffles baked.
• Good for you for eating only 1 cookie during breakfast
• Good for you for NOT eating the entire waffle just because you could have. You quit when you didn't want anymore.
• Good for you for being responsible.
• When are you going to block out time to exercise? This afternoon?

end of day 1

Well, Patrick and I did go out and walk, after all. It was better when the wind was at our backs. I am glad we only walked 1/2 mile.

We came home and started making gOatmeal Raisin cookies for FHE snack. Had to taste test 1 to make sure they weren't horrible.
No sharp pains or tingling in the toes today.

Dinner was a bowl of Taco soup topped with a little shredded cheese. I was REALLY sorry later because I am allergic to milk products and having eaten nachos with lunch...Oh did I get a sinus headache. Motrin, olive leaf and Reishi mushroom cures my trouble.

Skipped FHE snack, as I had already had 2 gOatmeal Raisin cookies. Went to bed by 8:00 pm.

Note to Self

• Come on, be sane about dairy.
• Kudos to you, self, for being conscious about the cookies.
• Better nights when you are food sane
  

Mid-day of day 1

Okay, so my copy of "Jillian Michaels 30 Day Shred" DVD is going up for sale on E-bay today.

I bought it a couple months ago because it looked interesting to me. Sure, I can come up with my own program, having trained in this for years, but I like to see what other people are doing and maybe like to follow her program.

Well, I choked when I saw her taking you from cardio to laying down to do crunches. ACK!!! If there was one thing I ever learned, it was to NOT do THAT. Your heart is pumping at this point and you don't just STOP and lay down!!!

When she used the "A" word for a body part, we shut it down.

Unprofessional. In the professional fitness world, you are to use "buttocks" not well, you know... "pectoral muscles" not "boobs."

Going up on ebay .

Too cold and windy to walk out here in Toad Suck (I am a temperature sissy) so Patrick and I fiddled around with the 5 lb ball.

Lunch was a BIG salad and...um..nachos (tortilla chips covered with pepperjack cheese) shared between 3 people, a palm full of blueberries and ...well...probably enough pepperoni nibbled on to consider at least half a meal while I made the salad.

So, message to self:

• Have high maintanance lunch ready made BEFORE I get hungry because I am still an immediate gratification kind of person.
• choose something besides pepperoni for nibbling

day 1

Today I went grocery shopping right after seminary, having forgotten all about my resolve to begin my "taking my body back" program (I've slept since then), but remembering vaguely that, for some reason, I wanted more cucumbers, fresh broccoli, more lettuce, more stuff that won't fit into my refrigerator.

A friend told me about Brocomoli. It's like Guacamoli, but using the stems of broccoli. I avoided buying broccoli with the stems because they always went to waste after spending the money for their additional weight. I avoided buying broccoli crowns, without the big stems, because you pay the price for NOT having stems. When I make it, I'll let you know how it turned out.

• So today, breakfast consisted of a Fuji apple, which is a good thing, but the only good ones in the store take 3 people to eat them. They're huge!! So some goes to waste unless I toss my leftover to Patrick.


• a serving of maple pecan gOatmeal


• and a palmfull of ..um....Chocolate Rocks

Taking My Body Back

I read recently, that if you blog about your desire to regain your health (or weight loss exercise program) you are more likely to stick to it. You have people watching your progress. Well, many years ago, a friend of mine made an offer to Jenny Craig corporation, that if they paid for her food, she would write about her progress with their product for the local newspaper, as she was a published free lance writer. Her first article was great, having chosen the tittle, "Losin' It." Well, that was the only article she wrote and she stayed the same. So...I don't know. We'll see.

For me, it's been 10 years like this and getting bigger from the "lose a little, great, then the body's Natural Famine Panic sets in and you eat everything" phenomenon. I've had enough. My dress size is really getting in the way and I am uncomfortable. I am having the symptoms of obesity/age onset diabetes, (tingling and sharp pains in my toes when I have eaten poorly), but when I eat right I have no symptoms. My father got this and after his diagnosis, his eating habits got worse. If he wanted ONE pastry,or anything else sweet/high fat, he bought a big box of 6 (or more) on his way to my house, ate one and left the rest for us. He did things like this repeatedly. Well, when you do that around a food addict....it calls your name. You cannot throw it out. You have to eat it. My weight gain began 15 years ago when I moved closer to my father. I ate right until then. Do I "blame" him? Of course not. Food addiction and diabetes is a hard combination to deal with when you don't understand them.

I would like the next 15 years, and beyond, to be better. Once upon a time, I lost a gazillion pounds, and was a size 8-10 (thinking I was still fat), working out regularly at the big boys gym, teaching fitness classes, doing great, eating right. When I had to quit teaching aerobics due to overuse injuries, I was directed by the Lord to get into Yoga. (My achilles tendon injures were so bad I couldn't even walk my dog. I needed Ace ankle braces just for normal walking around) Well, I tried to start too advanced and gave it up. To this day, my injuries are still there, and in one way even worse. I enjoyed water aerobics after my husband died, but I stopped going when there were too many people to be able to find a deep enough spot in the pool. Then I just didn't feel right leaving the family (normal response after a death in the family).

Then I started back, using the stationary exercise equipment (yuk) and the free weights (yes!). Started finding it a little weird working out around young, buff guys who went to beef up dramatically and look at their own physiques. Great for them, sure, but (yawn) for me. Sure, I worked out hard and they noticed that, taking time out of their lives to notice how much weight I was pressing out on the leg press. But I stopped going when the van broke down and I was too paranoid to drive it in and out of town every day. Still having a hard time leaving the family behind to go.

Our homeschool group went to the McGee center for an activity one Friday, and amazingly, the indoor track called my name repeatedly until I just couldn't stand it anymore and walked. I normally don't walk because of injuries but.... How refreshing!.. ...how I longed to just turn on the afterburners and GO, but the injured must take care of themselves or they will not be able to do it again. So I walked 4x around the track with a friend and loved every minute of it.

So now, I am back home, with videos and fitness equipment galore. Where shall I start? Oh where shall I start? Monday morning, January 25. With Patrick. On the road. Walking. And free weights.